Jinja, Source of Nile, Uganda
2019 you were a tough but a much needed defining year for me .
You are the building of the steady foundation for what is to come.
You have assured me that I am ready to take many adulting steps in the next few years.
2009 to 2019, you've been a monumental decade for me too!
The last ten years have taught me about...
End of the year again.
Here we are.
This was really Dad's holiday.
Mum's death anniversary also falls in the month of December.
She was all about that well decorated Christmas tree.
He was all about the festivities.
This is the first of many without them both forever.
I wonder if we will keep their Christmas traditions alive...
I wonder if we will be able to...
Earlier this year, I had to create some social media content around the new HPV vaccine.
The HPV vaccine for girls aged 10 years was recently introduced
into routine vaccination in Uganda.
Girls/children that age should be sexually inactive
making the vaccine more effective.
HPV stands for human papillomavirus.
It's an STD,...
I get stuck inside my head sometimes.
Keeping my problems, fears, anxieties and worries to myself.
I only share when the storm has passed.
This is going to change.
I have learned the wonderfulness of sharing and consulting
in confidants.
Confidants who are colleagues, friends and family.
I have learnt about the blissfulness of release of perfection,
and...
I created a video. 😀😀😀
I created a whole 6 minute video
6.59 minutes to be exact.
My boss asked me too...
My boss asked me to help someone out!?!
Me!....Me!? Me with my mobile phone. 😃😃😃
I was surprised and frightened at first.
Yet the word "okay" slipped out my mouth,
and responded to her request before I could stop it.
Then...
Some people will not understand until you crush them.
Some people will not behave until you crush them.
Some people don't understand any other language but being unmercifully crushed.
So that is what we will do Dad,
we will crush them.
They don't know that you taught us how to be cold blooded too.
We will crush them into nothingness
and scatter them...
I refuse to worry.
Too much is coming at me all at once.
And I am tired of trying to do everything, all right, all the time.
At night , as the cliche goes, I lay in bed staring at my yellow ceiling,
thinking about all that could wrong.
Sleepless in Kla.
For what?
Hasn't the worst happened?
Aren't Mum & Dad gone?...
Dear Dad,
I was waiting for it to happen.
When they took my keys and drove us home from the hospital,
When we had the meeting around the table with Uncle Kizza, Andrew and Uncle Tony
to discuss the funeral arrangements,
When we picked out the coffin at Uganda Funeral Home the next morning,
Or in the afternoon, after we...
Dear Dad,
I was meant to write something profound,
but you know how these things go, words have failed me.
Please excuse all grammatical errors I know how much those things annoy you.
This is a blog so we don't take these things so seriously here. I write as I would speak it.
I just realized I never showed this space to you,
but...
A word of advice.
Please don't take what I am about to say lightly,
because this is real gold and diamond encrusted wisdom that I am giving you for free.
Here goes...
Read the next sentence carefully..
You NEVER fully recover from your first serious incident of burnout.
From that moment onwards you... yes you are tainted.
Tainted...
I was inspired by this Carrie Hope Fletcher's You Tube Video. I hope to one day be as endearing yet succinct when I converse with people.
Every time I watch her videos, I feel like she's an old friend sitting down to have a good honest sincere chat with me about life and things...
So she came up with a list of prompts for content creation in May, and...
I wanted to write from a sad dark disrespectful place,
because it is easy for me.
Second nature.
But God said, "No, please don't write from there."
I had forgotten once again,
even though we (God & I) have been on this self -love journey for a long while.
You see I was starting to believe two hurt fools.
They keep projecting their...
Number 1.
I am scared ALL the time.
Like all the time.
Like every second.
Like there is NO peace .
Like even when I am sleeping I am SCARED.
It feels like a Game of Thrones episode in my body.
What the h*** is going on inside of me?
No one prepared me properly for this.
Number 2.
I don't understand...
Making: Time to pray the rosary. I must confess the concentration span & dedication required to recite it is a deterrent to me, most especially when the mind is tired, preoccupied & weak. Yet a surprising, but timely invitation from a colleague for a daily lunch time rosary dedication during the time of lent came. I have been hit by bouts of anxiety...
It is just a teeny weeny weeny weeny part of the internet.
A promise made on an island to myself,
and now an anchor when I feel perturbed or misaligned.
I can always come back and wonder through this digital space.
In this current life,
I often silently fight with my millennial self,
just to fit in,
just to get it right the first time round;
just to check...
It's 8.00 pm in Kitgum District.
The hot spell has followed us from the capital to the town
It's the type of devilish heat that suffocates,
The type that will sneak up on you if you don't pace yourself & stay hydrated,
The type that teaches you the art of patience & presence on an afternoon field mission,
The type that makes a cold shower after...
One of the perks about getting older is,
You are always so happy to discover yourself.
You eventually & begrudgingly accept that "fitting in" will never happen,
and thankfully that provides space for more productive hours in your life.
All that time you would spend molding yourself to seamlessly camouflage among the crowds,
you now spend getting to know yourself...
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