Some people will not understand until you crush them.
Some people will not behave until you crush them.
Some people don't understand any other language but being unmercifully crushed.
So that is what we will do Dad,
we will crush them.
They don't know that you taught us how to be cold blooded too.
We will crush them into nothingness
and scatter them into oblivion.
I refuse to worry.
Too much is coming at me all at once.
And I am tired of trying to do everything, all right, all the time.
At night , as the cliche goes, I lay in bed staring at my yellow ceiling,
thinking about all that could wrong.
Sleepless in Kla.
For what?
Hasn't the worst happened?
Aren't Mum & Dad gone?
Aren't Mum & Dad gone?
Dear Dad,
I was waiting for it to happen.
When they took my keys and drove us home from the hospital,
When we had the meeting around the table with Uncle Kizza, Andrew and Uncle Tony
to discuss the funeral arrangements,
When we picked out the coffin at Uganda Funeral Home the next morning,
Or in the afternoon, after we took your dark navy suit to
A++ funeral mortuary at Mengo Hospital,
A++ funeral mortuary at Mengo Hospital,
I was waiting..
Amongst the blurriness of my tears, despite what everyone thought,
I was alert & waiting.
I was alert & waiting.
When we finally arrived in the village the evening before the burial,
When I sat by you in your open coffin at 9 pm in Jajja's sitting room,
Even, the next day, when everyone was gone
and John, Paul and I watched them smooth the concrete over your grave,
I stood by our Jajjas' and Sengas' resting place waiting,
I remember that conversation we had in the hospital.
The many conversations we had at home.
You were always a master at reading & handling human beings.
We knew that.
Your children always knew it.
We know how to live.
We have more than what Malcolm Gladwell calls 10,000 hours of practice.
How many hours is it... if you've been practicing since childhood?
How many hours is it... if you've been practicing since childhood?
Anyways.... Stay well Dad
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