I filled my life with all my favourite things.

Dear Reader

Some people are natural givers

We are sometimes called naive

That's just how we are in relationships

encouragers

motivators

confidants

safety nets

providers

secret keepers

helpers

shoulders to cry on

etc....etc....

We make ourselves available for the people we care about

We are loyal

And some people are just takers

they take your energy

your zeal

your time

Sometimes even your body

your ideas

your self-esteem

And if you  are NOT being careful

They walk out with your 'life'

And convince you that you'll never get it back again

So this happened to me many many many whiles ago

The usual story

I trusted someone and they let me down

bla bla bla

You know this story well

He just walked away

So I prayed to God 

I had all this space in my life that I had created for him

So God reminded me of one of my favourite songs

That song for Sound of Music 

When the thunderstorm comes

And all the Von Trap family children run to Maria's room

She sings them this lovely song about her favourite things

And soon they forget 

They dance around the room while the storm goes on 

So during my 'storm' i made a list of all my favourite things

And filled my life with them..

And it's been really good

It's been bliss actually

But now I am dating this new guy

I can see he's struggling

because I have no BIG space for him

I refuse to make my life about him

And he only knows how to create relationships where he can take

Where I tell him how to be better

Give away myself so that he can feel stronger 

So you see he hasn't learnt how to find all of THAT within himself

He still needs people outside of him, to do that for him

He doesn't know what his favourite things are

So he's hoping that I'll share mine with him

except I'm not willing to give him things to TAKE.

Because I am still getting to know him

I have designated a space for him

one where if he chooses to leave 

He leaves as he came 

without any of my favorite things..

Your Sincerely, 

Still Scared & All My Favorite Things