Dear Queen,
It's been a long while.
Not sure if this letter-writing-thing will become a regular activity again,
but I just wanted to say well done for unintendedly discovering yourself once more.
Isn't that the funniest thing about getting older?
You can still surprise yourself.
Who knew that a peaceful internal revolution and transformation could be triggered by
simply having control over one's own physical space?
You woke up early in the morning and started your weekend by cleaning.
No one forced you too.
You set your mind to it.
You were halfway through mopping the floor with a divinely Lavender scented soap,
when it dawned on you that you were having fun chugging back and forth across the slippery surface while loudly singing along to Tiwa Savage's and Davido's Park Well song.
What!?
Enjoying doing chores!? Your mother is laughing in heaven.
The awkward teenage who avoided such responsibilities...
Eh....times have really changed.
Intrinsic actions like organizing your desk, your cupboard, your bedside table give you joy.
Quiet joy.
Quiet joy effortlessly emanating from your heart.
It started slowly.
You sat down to go through your jewelry and accessory boxes
You put your earrings here.
You put your necklaces there.
And on and on till everything had it's place.
The old and discolored were finally thrown out.
A chore became a metaphor of what you were doing with your whole life.
Simple inconsequential activities help boost your self-confidence.
You got to decide, on your own, by yourself.
Imagine such facile daily actions helping get you back on track!?
Sooooo satisfying to the soul.
Your mind is clear like a polished quartz crystal.
Queen, feel some secret pride in yourself for flourishing at this adulting aspect,
because it is encouraging you to pause,
in a world that often doesn't like it when you hesitate.
Take this time to pause and reflect.
You are still attempting to tackle your habit of constantly sacrificing yourself.
So yes ....pause and reflect cause
you can't save everyone.
Still endeavoring to create physical and mental boundaries?
Yes....pause and reflect.
Let people handle their own disappointment.
They will be fine.
Wow....growing pains are a very real thing,
not so perfectly experienced like in the popular coming-of-age-movies .
Once again well done Queen!
Let's celebrate the wins while we can.
I am observing and appreciating this time in your life.
That's why I wrote today.
In the future I will come here and read this again,
So I that I can remember to cheer you on.
Until next time
All my love,
M
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